july 2011
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
The Republica Update/Frienemies With My Ego
I have made it a point in my life to stay in touch with lovers from the past. I use the word lover loosely, as the level of intimacy I achieved with any of these men runs the gambit. For the most part, this has been a pleasurable experience, maintaining the connection I felt at some point but creating a less complicated relationship with limited expectations.
This does not seem to be standard practice and recently I have started to see why. It seems no matter how evolved or disinterested you think you are, the inevitable feelings of ickiness come creeping up. It was during a recent bout with ickniess that I had to take a moment, look myself in the mirror, and decide whether it was genuine emotion spurring these feelings, or simply ego. Our egos seem to get in the way of the decision making process from time to time and, as I get older, I learn to pause and evaluate it’s intrusion before taking action.
I am not arrogant or self-involved, however, I like most human beings am subject to the proverbial bruising of my ego. I find that since I seem hell bent on making my life as difficult as possible, this injury is often self-inflicted, making it all the more painful and frustrating. I am well versed at taking my lumps but that doesn’t make it any more awesome. It still sucks to do something foolish or stupid or downright mean and then have to own up to it. But alas… (Read More)
July 2011
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Tuesday, July 5, 2011
the hood diaries
as part of my eternal quest to be afraid of nothing, i participated in my 2nd annual shameless fourth of july. last year a mini grill was propped up in front of my building, without so much as a stoop and meghan and i ate chicken and asparagus in 2 newly purchased chairs.
this year we upped the anty and had a feast, replete with my coffee table serving as both a spot for dining, as well as my first dominoes lesson. the dishware was provided by both my old roommate as well as yankee stadium and madison square garden. not sure i have ever felt more like a new yorker. the soundtrack of euro techno and gaga was provided by my next door neighbors, as i do not so much as own a stereo.
i wanted to make sure i got proof of said event to not only illustrate my ridiculousness on a daily basis, but also to have proof of the fact that my cooking acumen is reaching new heights. pun intended.
july 2011
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